finally got a new phone. woo
- friend: you should've come with us!
- me: an invitation might have helped
like why. I don’t want to take that shit. I’m tired of having to feel like being upset is wrong. like I obviously have a reason for being upset. why can’t that be seen? I don’t get it.
Today has been a good day.
find myself getting jealous easier these days. oh man I hate being jealous.
I’m not gunna stop hating myself until I do something to change what I don’t like.
I hate that I used to never let myself feel. Now that I do I dont know how to deal with it and any negative emotion is made worse cause I dont know what to do. even if its something stupid and I know I just make it worse by over thinking and shit. Especially when its with alex too and I feel bad about it but i dont know man my brain is fuggin stupid.
Sleeping is nice because youre not actually dead and youre not awake so its a win-win situation
It’s like being dead without the commitment.
an open relationship with death
death with benefits
